the propping up of rootless boys and the past changing only what was. your father the spinner of flea market globes. a bat in the barn with the head of a chicken. your mother returning to god the ghost you painted for death. your son wetting the bed. right of owl, left of crow.
for brother Noah
I think / in a past / life / my sense / of touch / was yours
–
mother / ain’t once / lost / while pregnant / a baseball / in the sun
–
thunder / is lightning’s / empty stomach
a moth attacking the ear of a white horse
[on a family farm
littered
with oar-beaten
scarecrows]
–
baby talk
in a suicide note
–
sign language, mosh pit, 1991
today I was outside
holding my son
and hummed
into his neck
a man
resurrected
to faint
–
childhood
animals
deeply
unhurt
–
this machine can detect silence
this stick
if stones
are gay
it is there
in the way
my father
refolds
a single
grocery bag
for a cyclops
that never
arrives
means:
there is a tent
being studied
by dream.
missing
more than snow
the ashes
of snow.
footwear. and checking
our food
for holes.
means keeping
dry
a diver’s
eyelash. and leaving
to finish
absence.
as if any father
could heal
a cigarette
or remove
for a grey-eyed
newborn
the stitches
from a dream
an unhurried weirdo whose character development was orphaned by ghosts
