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October 27, 2017 / barton smock

When Spiritual Bypassing Meets Racism Meets Gaslighting

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I want to talk about something I witnessed last week in the online world.

First, a little background. A couple of years ago, I became increasingly aware of a pervasive phenomenon in the (overwhelmingly white) women’s spirituality/ personal growth circles I move in. I noticed persistent attempts to deny and disown painful realities by insistence (overt or implied) that we create our struggles with our negative thinking or energy or low vibration or fill-in-the-blank. I do believe the way we frame things in our thinking can be important to our well being and success, up to a point. I do believe we have some authentic choice around where we place our focus, and those choices can impact our well being and success, up to a point. However, I found the blanket application and oversimplification of these ideas to…

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October 27, 2017 / barton smock

the ghost of his mother giving shoes to a shadow

sympathy pain, crib

of a normalized

hunger

October 27, 2017 / barton smock

did we know that during sex a puppet protects its ribs

the enhanced sameness of being alone. the last name of a circle. suicide has done its homework. pretend you’re the someone pretends to be you.

October 26, 2017 / barton smock

chasmic

each drawing I do of my face is uglier than the last. god sends me hands I can’t use and prays for his hair. if I have a daughter, she is returning items to a small mirror.  keep me if I don’t.

October 26, 2017 / barton smock

poem

to koan
the world
makes perfect
sense, to motto

it makes
none-

two vowels
in the word
poor

October 26, 2017 / barton smock

in the borrowed dress of a more vivid sibling

oh
voice, my immediate
orphan

October 26, 2017 / barton smock

review of Ruth Awad’s {Set to Music a Wildfire}

Set to Music a Wildfire
poems by Ruth Awad
SIR Press, 2017

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Will you die for an idea?” – Ruth Awad, from Let me be a lamb in a world that wants my lion

When so much praise is reserved for the universal, for a thing that touches all things, here is Ruth Awad’s Set to Music a Wildfire– a work that feels pressed into the page. A work that picks up the pieces, not after, but during. A work that pauses in order to continue. A rewriting of the detail’s bible. I love this book for its spiritual reportage:

There was the broken teapot and two women, their clothes
torn open, and an infant. (Sabra and Shatila Massacre / Refugee camps in Beirut, Lebanon, 1982)

For the way its observant foresight lets image stand:

Tripoli rooftop.
…The sea lipped its insoluble gossip
to the shoreline.

The sky was a jar full of loose teeth. (Tracers)

The book is comprised of three sections: Born into War / House Made of Breath / What the Living Know. Veining through them is a man in a mask, a father, who wants face to leave with a name. Awad is there, it seems, to ghost each section with sigh and nail. From the ‘unbearably soft’ to an earth pinned by animal and animal’s passage, Awad cradles an imaginary fossil through the fog of idea and country.

The map between us proof

I don’t know this world. (Interview with My Father: Maps)

Through interview and remembrance, Awad clays the voice of her father from a homegrown brevity and allows local, fleeting heavens their empty feast.

Years ago when the power cut off,
your family hung in the elevator
like a half-swallowed bite (Elevator / Abou Samra, Lebanon)

We are writing your anthem:
the cursive of blood (A Message from the Guardians of the Cedars)

Death gets no audience here, but does get a performance. Here, history’s flower is a torch. Awad is no bystander, but as a poet who can achieve the trinity of being there for her subject, for herself, and for her reader, she joins rather than invades.

I write all over the pages of the books I’m reading. In Set To Music a Wildfire, I wrote very little, save for this small aside: it was touch / told hand / to over / pack. Awad knows the stasis leaving causes, and her book seems written in a language one is elsewhere understanding. It is an untouchable thing. A handprint’s bliss. A within where place speaks to place. Fly gets its wall, and ghost its tattoo. Awad’s voice carries so much, and manages beautifully the recalling of echo.

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review by Barton Smock

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book is here:

October 25, 2017 / barton smock

review of Kaveh Akbar’s {Calling a Wolf a Wolf}

Calling a Wolf a Wolf
poems by Kaveh Akbar
Alice James Books, 2017

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review by Barton Smock

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It has been hard, of late, for me to read poetry because my son is getting older and his sickness, younger. I know my son is not his body, but his body is a crash course in logistical identity. I read Kaveh Akbar’s book, Calling a Wolf a Wolf, with its fleeing of density and with its character-driven desertions, and found proof of place. It kept me from sleep’s rootless sideshow, and called to me from its phone booth made of wax. I wrote this note to myself after the first read-through: if blood spoke, or saw- have I ever seen so much person?

I will not quote from the book here, or give guidance from this point, as sharing is sometimes an erasing. I do not think my own appropriations of the work would do justice to Akbar’s particular museum of curiosity and collapse. This poetry, I feel, is so humanly built from its generous amnesia that it deserves to be committed to memory in the ruin created by its author’s forgetting.

I know I cannot tell my son’s sick body anything it doesn’t already know, nor healthy can I record for it the first instance of déjà vu. And yet, in the blood these poems are allowed to keep, and in their subsequent drinking of without, I find a spiritual safety. I see the body, now, and perhaps did before, as a language given to a busted vision from a full heaven. A shapelessness in need of Akbar’s investigations.

book is here: http://alicejamesbooks.org/ajb-titles/calling-a-wolf-a-wolf/

 

October 25, 2017 / barton smock

further annotations for son

god closes the food truck and waits for his carefully chosen porn to buffer.

even
over this
a star

October 25, 2017 / barton smock

entry

I tell the mechanic my car sounds like it’s drinking blood / I am not trying to be funny / end.

abuse, 1980: because a tornado won’t touch a house on fire

in the nursery, the babies with elderly features…