i.
so happens
that his first
circus
reminds him
of the circus
ii.
any creature
smaller
than a dog
should get back
in the dog
iii.
I lost my hair
or began
to lose
my hair in a cornfield
how at age 15 I was asked to play at easter service the son of god and had to hold my arms up for so long that I
with focus enough to bend a spoon
begged for a nail and how it was an eternity inside of which my father had been gay and how he had to love for years so invisibly that it gave him cancer and I thought and he thought
he was dying and he was so close and how at the highest point of faking his accidental death he became concerned about the reading material in the lobby of the hospital’s x-ray floor and so brought
from home his own
books and magazines like some editor of a stranger’s
last words and now I wonder how to hold a thing up to my father in a way that is not decorated
with discovery
I write in this tongue and pray in another.
we sleep
and are kissed
by an ear
in three
beds: train, cow, frog.
if you’ve seen one roach,
you’ve seen them all. that’s where they come from.
bread leaves home and food / comes for all / in animal / metaphors / favored / by god
a call-in radio show
the listeners
of which
are asked
to describe
loneliness
in their own words
(sexual
farness)
to a coal worker
or a clown
I have a friend whose father called every basement the devil’s treehouse. a friend who’s here today because she hid a knife. whose brother met god too early on the path to god and whose mother would jump from anything to fix a tooth…
there are people who don’t smoke
who want to
when it rains
