Mother as one who gives birth to avoid confrontation. Years from now, I exist. I want a cigarette, a puppy, and Jesus
on the cross. I wrestle the brother who wrestles as if he’s sobbing inside an elephant. People die on purpose. The world’s smallest inventor tries her thumb at bulletproof bullets. Pray puppets for puppet rain.
Moods for whale watchers:
As god’s gift to the suicidal mother, a stuffed crow goes a long way. Balloons here lose their mannequin air.
How we end up in Ohio is
I saw in hell a star
that in heaven
I did not
Odd, how I was asked to write something toward the power of poetry for The Poetry Question soon after the death of my grandmother, and opened it with this line:
‘After one death, there is another.’
Odd, as well, how the piece went live the day of my grandfather’s funeral.
The last day I’d see my grandfather was the day my son with special needs would later be hospitalized for the flu and for pneumonia.
So, this final thing toward the power of poetry: That it makes inside of nothingness a matrix. That it overlays disappearance with a precise, but uncalculated, absence. I have thought, recently, of not being visible for a bit. Of loss and almost loss. But I don’t think it would do what I want it to. I miss most that which I am seeing.
Ohio poetry:
Escapism
loses everything.
With what other formless art
could one address
nothingness?
Infants
in the phantom fit
of a rolled
tire. A mercy
the knee
in kneel
By poor, I mean they are strangers to brevity. Like babies and glass.
By rainfall
the bomb
maker’s map.
By god, our kiss blown god. By death
that it’s been
replaced.
wash oh please
my forehead
with a mother’s
handprint, be
as sweet
as my brothers
fawning
over the belly
of the lover
who’s by now
removed
their matching
imaginary
tattoos, score
the earlobe
of a nail-biting
infant,
die.
the angel in the mirror
is not alone
all the time
a circus worker
smokes
as one
who dreams
of being brainwashed
in Eden
the details
need some space
every bee sting
has a ghost

