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March 9, 2022 / barton smock

(from 2010. SORRY

from 2010. some storytelling has been lost.

CITY WORRY

I was writing a note to my father. I had gotten this far-  father, the birdhouse has become more than I can bear. It was a note I should’ve written weeks ago. My wife wouldn’t eat, my kids kicked arrowheads or didn’t bother kicking them at all. My first thought on my not breathing so good was: it’s this goddamn note. I took a walk, I passed father’s orchard. I opened my mouth many times very wide, many times I had to kneel. It was so quiet I failed to panic. The hospital seemed as accidental as my being there. An ambulance had its sirens lit but I heard nothing. Two young men were fighting passively over sitting in a wheelchair. One of the men gave up and sat on the bumper of the ambulance which took off so slowly he needn’t hang on. His legs swung and he waved to me or someone behind. Inside the hospital, there was a bell to ring and a rope to pull. It crossed my mind what exactly was my emergency. I was getting weaker. It took me an hour to reach the elevator. There was a little girl going down. She was holding  a silver bird like an iron and she was pressing it into the stitched back of a man on a gurney. She looked up at me and dropped the bird. I picked up the bird, it wasn’t real, its beak was missing. I pointed to the man and asked the girl is this your father. The girl told me no and asked me what room my son was in. I really just wanted to go up and down and up again. Make it to the roof. Be the first one there.
March 9, 2022 / barton smock

partials,

A boy whose mother is cleaning a house in the dark is saying very near to my son that our hands are the same age. No one is being kissed. A blank drink makes something of my mouth but it's too late. You can't take prayer with you. Words get named.
March 8, 2022 / barton smock

(offline photos of some words that displayed my words

from Ghost Arson (2018, Kung Fu Treachery Press)
March 7, 2022 / barton smock

partials,

Each finger believes it knows how many times the hand has been troubled. Image unseen, angel takes every bone. Bread hides itself in bread. Becomes paper in the pilot’s stomach. 
March 2, 2022 / barton smock

(films, small reflections (you won’t be alone, hatching, resurrection, nanny, all the moons, the killing of two lovers, beast beast, the night, come true, rose plays julie, materna, giants being lonely

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Goran Stolevski's You Won't Be Alone is an awestruck and forged thing of first creatures and last acts that makes up both words and silence and puts them together to say body in a way that doesn't forget the teeth or how to pull them from the stories of the horribly bitten and damn if the lit work of Noomi Rapace, Alice Englert, Sara Klimoska, and Anamaria Marinca doesn't keep a lonely fire, hold the quiet, and give it air.

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Misshapen and willful, Hatching is a vividly off-kilter horror movie of painted-on happiness and colored-in connections in which director Hanna Bergholm gives us both the double lives of the dead inside and the lonely ghosting of those unsurprised to be caught on camera.

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While keeping confession pinned beneath the unholy ripple of Tim Roth's flickering muscle of a performance, Resurrection, as guided and committedly freed by director Andrew Semans, is a film of secret chaos and bodily left turns that lovingly loses its permission to a possessed and wholly overtaken showing from Rebecca Hall. While surely mad and caringly unpredictable, it wouldn't be able to talk its tongues without the work that Grace Kaufman does as a child who moves the happening from under the accident with a waiting lonely enough to cradle the hurting young and uncarried old.

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Elegantly untouched by director Nikyatu Jusu, who knows that stories are owed their belongings, Nanny is a delayed stunner of a film that never feels behind or slow but instead, and in line with the spiritual and physical fluidity of Anna Diop's fictile performance, stops and starts in a depth that feels both timeworn and newly doomed. 

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After watching Igor Legarreta's All The Moons, a film that lands a star somewhere near Let The Right One In and You Won't Be Alone, where those of a forced immortality are made to ask for permission to be eternal, I wrote a few lines in a notebook:

I healed myself with the knowledge that there was no cure for my ghost. 
Before I knew it, my childhood was older than me.
I am the only one who feels that you've been here before.
You sound invisible. 

I don't know, brother, sister, you. Death is the longest read, and war a cheap bookend. See the film. Love the sick. I'll lose the notebook.

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Robert Machoian's The Killing of Two Lovers captures the vastness of being lived in and knows to leave unnamed that thing that crawls toward the skin with its history of being chosen last and sent first. Clayne Crawford is upfront about his character's distance, and has something so informed physically coursing through his and another's person that even pain would need a moment to look away. Sepideh Moafi and Chris Coy, with Crawford, also bring their bodies into moments that need possessed, and make an already alien gut check of a film into something distilled and movingly abducted.

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Danny Madden’s Beast Beast is a film of spaces both dedicated and random, and of a time not sure if it’s escaping or being told to leave. Its DIY beginnings resist plot but then succumb, and if its more local parts seem an ill fit for the smallness of its universal body, it is a fiction, and does well in the wounds of opera as it interrogates exhibition with display and asks performance whether the lines have been said wrong or were they just given to the wrong person. While Will Madden gives his character the perfect amount of nothing to own, Shirley Chen and Jose Angeles come separately from another movie that becomes this movie and they take root in that brief claim.  

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Psychologically patient, Kourosh Ahari’s The Night is a knockout of a horror film that follows a couple and their child long enough that something behind us begins to live with the guilt of being temporary. With the dual portals of imagery and language, the performances by Shahab Hosseini and Niousha Jafarian go from ghost to ghost, barrier to obstacle, knowing that a shallow grave is deeper than a jump scare and that one eye is never surprised there’s a second. 

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Come True as directed by Anthony Scott Burns is a film of impulsive longevity that crops trauma and isolation with the yield of sleep. I’m not sure how many left fields one can come out of, but was glad for how Julia Sarah Stone centered her performance and guided her character as touch to the overly handled. If you need to leave something behind, I’d suggest watching this film once today and then once tomorrow if you can get there.

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Though Rose Plays Julie is a film glowing with suddenness, it is lit by the slowness of a vengeance that does not allow the mirror to mistake itself for a puzzle. Ann Skelly scarily pieces apart her role while Orla Brady renames togetherness for the bitten tongue. As the film reveals itself as a vessel for how we’re carried, writers/directors Christine Molloy and Joe Lawlor leave saving for the rescued and instead uncover how much more there is to the lighthouse than its empty ship.

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No matter how in-your-face hurt can be, intimacy doesn’t always get its close-up, and it’s in this unmothered proximity that David Gutnik’s Materna finds the distance to operate. Whether it’s the muscle amnesia of Kate Lyn Sheil’s performace, the gutted mimicry of Jade Eshete’s, the clocked-out but fleshed-in nowness of Lindsay Burdge’s, or the recreated absence that Assol Abdullina motions to from afar, all make of pain a figure fussing over a puzzle abandoned by image.   

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Not so much fragmented as multiplied, Grear Patterson's film Giants Being Lonely is an anti-dream of an answer to the delicate interrogations that plague youth with finality. If you touch a baseball, you share a hand. If you speak, it's to more visibly miss being yelled at. The two central performances by Ben Irving and Jack Irving are softly anxious and run into each other tenderly enough that their injuries trade places without, or perhaps before, being hurt. There are no hard tells here. Dinner scenes are an empty win, a baseball field is an orphanage of light, and first dates are halved by the same appetite. While there is something magically small about its final shot, this film isn't really about sticking the landing, but about taking root.  

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March 2, 2022 / barton smock

partials,

Memory only eats in front of god. Mothers and daughters smoke together from tornado watch to warning trying to pick up on voice changes in a neighbor's fish and in doing so make of each cigarette a ghost kite that leaves me longing to miss a more specific balloon. There aren't enough of us. Every suicide surprises loss.
March 1, 2022 / barton smock

ghostalgia xvi

By the time darkness touches every map, the baby is useless. God a mistake mistaken for a childhood's double life. If there is a horse, there is a horse

thinking only of itself yet also
on the kindness 
of a past 
horse. 

Sight cooks my eye in a voided spoon.
February 28, 2022 / barton smock

afterjaw (for Mark Lanegan

Every third angel in the shared dream of swimming with a nosebleed emerges with a temporary fact about god. To hear anything, one must first

pack snow near a dying bear.
February 24, 2022 / barton smock

you live longer than the person using your loneliness (for Mark Lanegan

what 
would keep
angels
from comparing
papercuts
god and sleep
are actions
I take
February 20, 2022 / barton smock

(words toward Igor Legarreta’s film ‘All The Moons’

After watching Igor Legarreta's All The Moons, a film that lands a star somewhere near Let The Right One In and You Won't Be Alone, where those of a forced immortality are made to ask for permission to be eternal, I wrote a few lines in a notebook:

I healed myself with the knowledge that there was no cure for my ghost. 
Before I knew it, my childhood was older than me.
I am the only one who feels that you've been here before.
You sound invisible. 

I don't know, brother, sister, you. Death is the longest read, and war a cheap bookend. See the film. Love the sick. I'll lose the notebook.